Coleen’s Real Women

I went to the casting for the ‘reality’ ‘model’ show and it was fun. All the girls there were gorgeous. Coleen was really nice, even if I was a little scared by the fake smiles whilst the cameras were on. She asked me some questions and shook my hand and stuff, which was cool. I didn’t get through, but I don’t regret going and everyone there was like a UK 10 or smaller, so meh. I can’t say too much about it because I signed a confidentiality agreement; what I will say is that after hearing some of the stories today and experiencing the filming for myself, reality tv is in no way similar to reality. Which may sound obvious, but I just didn’t realise the extent to which things are faked.

One of the girls in our ‘group’ (yep, we all formed groups like we were back in school or something) got through to the final 11 at least, so I’m really happy for her. Plus everyone got free shampoo lol. Some of the most beautiful girls didn’t get through though, and most people were surprised at who was chosen. I know I was, there were two beautiful girls I was convinced would be in it and weren’t.

Coleen was short (I think even shorter than lil’ old 5’2″ and a half me), and was wearing all black. She looked good, but if you didn’t know who she was, you wouldn’t look twice at her in the street. Other celebrities of the day included an ex-soap star (who happened to be walking past) and a Big Brother 4 contestant (not sure whether she was involved in the making of the programme or not).

I also got talking to a girl who was crazy for entering things, including Miss Great Britain and Miss England, which apparently you just pay to enter.

In other news, I’ve been feeling a bit down over the past couple of days. I’m going on holiday next week so I’m trying to look forward to that but it’s tough. I don’t WANT to be depressed any more, and in many ways it’s not as bad as it has been but I have no reason to feel bad, I don’t WANT to feel bad, so why am I feeling bad? Ugh.