Chrissy’s party was really good. I wasn’t in the mood for going at all, I’d had a crap day and my family were driving me mad. It was good to get away and see everybody. :love: It was, overall, really fun, even though a few of my friends couldn’t make it for one reason or another.

The weekend feels wasted though, I feel like I’ve not done much even though I have, and I hate that feeling. Still, as one of my teachers reminded me on Friday, I have done a hell of a lot of work over the last term. And to be honest, that did make me feel a whole lot better. I just need someone to say that to me occasionally, it stops me feeling inferior and stressed because I’m behind everyone else with work yet again. He doesn’t want me ‘running myself into the ground’ Which is what I’m prone to do, especially because at the moment I feel like I’m always one step behind, and desperately trying to catch up. Still, it’s only till the end of June, and after that it’s party time Mwahaha.

My day was pretty boring overall. I went to sleep about 3am; Hannah stayed over at mine and we ended up talking about bacon and trees. Neither conversation was started by me, in case you’re interested Then I kept falling asleep and dozing off again, and eventually got up about 12. Most of the day was spent walking and playing with Pom, and chatting on MSN. I’ve barely done any work :S Still, I have got tomorrow off college so I can use that time I don’t want next week to start, because I don’t want go to Nottingham University Open Day lol. I just can’t be bothered at the moment. That’s my catchphrase. It’s possible I’m overworked to the extent where I really can’t be bothered doing anything at all. And when I actually do have a break, I get further behind :grr: I hate vicious cycles.

On a brighter note, I’m going to die on Tuesday, April 2, 2080. If I wasn’t being so optimistic these days, I’d be dying Saturday, December 13, 2042. And dying 3 days after my birthday would not be fun If you want to find out your own death date, click here. I reckon I could make a much more accurate script, incorporating countries, drinking habits, etc. but I really don’t have the time or energy to attempt it

Okay, I’m off to go run myself into the ground some more

EDIT: A picture from last night

I’m so tired :yawn: I have no idea why. Last night I was babysitting from 7-9:30 (I didn’t do anything wrong for once!), which I’m not used to since they normally get back about 12. They asked if I could babysit tonight but I have Chrissy’s party :love: I might fall asleep before it starts though lol. So last night I was on the Internet for a while, then I went to bed and watched Amercian Pie 2. It’s the best of all 3 I think. Anyway, even though I really like it, I fell asleep about halfway through it lol :blush: I need to go shopping and pick up some things (although Em got Chrissy’s present from the two of us yesterday, I still need to get her a card, and I also need felt tips etc. for coursework). My sister wants to go into town to get her hair cut; I was going to to but I really can’t be bothered :hmm: And Pom needs taking for a walk, and…blergh. Maybe if I get dressed I’ll feel more awake, but I can’t stop yawning lol. I feel like falling asleep right here :yawn:
I’ve done some Latin, but it still didn’t wake me up haha. And it doesn’t help that Fuzz is all stretched out by the radiator, looking all sleepy and relaxed. Maybe I’ll go and wake my sister up and sort out the arrangements and that’ll get me going. I don’t know. I bet you’re falling asleep now this blog is so boring haha.
I need to do some work on the Tutorials section today – do you think I should download PSP 9 and translate all my tutorials from 7 into it? Let me know :love: Oh, and also let me know if there’s anything you’d love to see on the site.

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My ‘be positive’ approach is working well so far..apart from one minor setback due to my history teacher….
Basically, we have coursework essays which have to be in this Friday and signed to check they are ours, that they have the right amount of words etc., because they count such a lot towards the final grade. Anyway, most teachers in the college are willing to answer questions and go over/mark people’s coursework several times. Our history teacher has looked at it once. :hmm: Then he said that we could talk to him about it, but he wouldn’t take it in, because he couldn’t do that for everyone in the class and it wouldn’t be fair. Ok, fair enough. So yesterday I asked him for help, and he agreed to see Tom and I in second lesson (even though that meant we would have to give up some time from our English Lit. lesson). So Tom goes in after the person before him walks out and comes out practically straight away – Andy wouldn’t see him! Yet he spoke to at least 3 other people about it, so what happened to, ‘I’m not going to take it in because it will be unfair on others’?! So not talking to some people is suddenly ok?! :grr: Plus he’d already agreed to seeing us! Anyway, I talked to other people who he actually had spoken to, and they said he wasn’t helpful at all :sick:

I read somewhere, if you want something in life, go to the top. Since my teacher is actually the head of the department, there wasn’t a whole lot further I could go, but I went to see one of the student managers (my form tutor last year and part-time history teacher). I felt really bad for asking him, as he has about four times as much work to do as my teacher (he has all his student manager stuff to do plus he does something else, I’m not sure what and he teaches law and history, and maybe politics too I don’t know), but unlike my teacher, he doesn’t complain or make you feel about two inches tall and that your time isn’t as important as his :hmm: Anyway, I’m really glad I did go to see him because he spent an hour going through every sentence with me, suggesting changes, working in his own sentences, writing stuff down for me etc. I knew my fake ‘perfect student’ reputation would come in useful here He’s generally a really scary guy (even the other teachers think so), but he’s always liked me. Which quite possibly says a lot about me Anyway, he told me to make the changes and email it to him, and he’d look at it again the next day. I got the email about half an hour ago, and he has changed quite a lot of it and added stuff too. I need to go and read it and decide whether it’s ok I’m sure it will be The moral of the story? Keep complaining till you get your own way It’s the exact opposite of my ‘be positive’ approach, but never mind.

Edit Just finished commenting on the 40 odd sites of last entry’s commenters, it took me nearly an hour! *wipes brow* If you didn’t have a new blog up or you have a .tk, I didn’t comment because I couldn’t. but I did everyone else